Happy Thanksgiving!!!!

I'm grateful for....

My fabulous home and family!
My amazing job and boss!
My healthy body and energy!
My church and friends!

Let me vent about men for a minute!!!

How does God expect me to get married when men are selfish, shallow, jackasses!!! Seriously, what am I going to do? I'd rather be single then worry about a jackass that wants me to have a sexy body and take care of everything!!! I don't want to babysit another adult/man/boyfriend/husband....whatever!!! Life is complicated enough as it is and I hate feeling pressure!!! I'm turning 29 next year and then thirty and most likely I will be the infamous 30 year old virgin! Never been madly deeply in love with anyone sadly to say or happy to say!!! Because therefore I have never had my heart broken!!! But the frusterating thing is that I have a LOT of LOVE inside me to give and my passion of fire is diminishing the older I get. I lack motivation and I desperately need someone to be giddy about...a simple crush or prospect would be nice. I see soooo many shitty marriages I often wonder why would I take that leap of faith into commitment/love/ and marriage. I have come to the conclusion that all I really want is a couple of adorable kids to call my own... a mini Tess to hold in my arms...and that I know God knows is the deepest desire of my heart....thank you Blog for letting me vent on this Friday night!!!

I LOVE it when......

1.) I get to listen to the radio driving home from work on a Saturday night and it's showtunes Saturday night, Broadway music always touches my heart!!!

2.) While driving I see the beautiful Utah mountains covered with some snow and the sun is shining so perfectly!!!

3.) Someone says I made their day!!!

4.) When I get a random big hug from a student, teacher, or friend!!!

5.) I get a genuine compliment!!!

6.) The smell of fresh popped popcorn!!!

7.) The first sip of a 44oz. Diet Soda!!!

8.) A funny wall post makes my day!!!

9.) My family dog, Fe looks at me with her puppy dog eyes lovingly!!!

10.) Gus does something new and geniously smart!!!!

Disneyland 2010 was Magical!!!

XOXO Minnie & Mickey Mouse!!!!

Things at work that drive me CRAZY!!!

Things that I dislike….

When people talk to me like I am a toddler

When people shush me

When people ignore me

When people act like they care but really don’t

When people judge me for a stupid reason

When people are soooo private about their life

When people can’t take a joke

When people are prudes!!!

When people are too serious!!!

When people get offended easily

When people don't hug you back

Fe means Faith in spanish....We have faith that she will live a long happy life!

Fe

My new reason to rush to get home from work is to see my little puppy, Fe!!! Absolutely love and adore her!!! I only wish she was not sick all the time it seriously is depressing! She doesn't bark which is the best thing ever! She loves to sleep and sleep and sleep! I pray for Fe everyday to get better!

Single life is the bomb!

Top ten reasons I love being single!

1. I don't have to share a bed!
2. I don't have to check in with anyone!
3. My money is never asked where I spent it!
4. I can do whatever I want whenever I want!
5. Being a super Aunt and having fun!
6. Going to lots of movies, playing at the pool, and eating ice cream as much as I want!
7. Eating out for one and not having to cook!
8. Not having to babysit a grown-up/ man!
9. Staying up late, sleeping in, with no one to bother me!
10. Hanging out with friends and family as much as I want!

Really? REALLY?

Seriously? Another one of my younger cousins is getting married...couples...babies....families...and I still stand in limbo land! Love too, not really, sometimes it's nice not to have anyone to come home to...not to have to cook dinner for two...not to have to check in or get permission to stay out late with the friends. But deep down inside I know that I really want to fall in love and be loved in return! Husband, lover, family, it all just seems like a fantasy life to me right now. So far away yet my friends and family say it's so close...maybe next summer I will get married that's what I've been saying for five years now. I just haven't met the one...i guess...life is good...really?

What's your flavor?

When I ask myself or others the question...What is your flavor? I'm speaking of the kind of men you like to date. Lately I have been trying all sorts of flavors of men, it's hard to find the perfect flavor. My friend said she likes whatever is on her plate! I'm trying to be more open minded and give every guy a fair chance, a few dates to see if we are compatible. The love connection is hard for me to find it seems especially the older you get. Maybe I am too picky but I refuse to settle for my EC, seriously eternity is a long time. No rushing to the alter for me! I'm turning 28 this summer and I have my ten year highschool reunion pressures! I wish I had a hot husband to show off with three adorable kids but I don't so I will have to show up single and sexy;) Maybe I will meet some nerd that I didn't know in highschool but is now rolling the money! Wouldn't that be nice...

Feast or Famine

Feast or famine that is my life right now! With men, dating, social life, and of course finances! I seem to still live paycheck to paycheck on a preschool teacher salary/ Nanny Tessy/ Tessy Taxi/ I need some extra money flow! Sometimes I think my only hope is to marry rich and successful cuz my parents aren't hooking me up anytime soon.
No, seriously though, I'm all about hard work and living a righteous life! And that is exactly what I'm looking for in a future EC! A guy that is not a slothful servant but anxiously engaged in doing good works and showing me loving kindness as much as possible, daily would be nice.
I've been in a lot of homes and seen first hand successful marriages and how the spouse can be treated on a daily basis. I know that happiness in marriage is most likely to be achieved by living the gospel standards and like they say, "a couple that prays together stays together!" LTLTLTLTLTLTLTLTLTL OMGosh I'm getting set up on a date with a guy named, Lance, he is divorced with a three year old kid but who's to judge. I've reached that certain age where the men I'm dating have a history some good and bad baggage. All that matters is if they have progressed and if they have their priorities straight now! For the first time in my life I am actually praying daily for my husband and that I can be worthy of him and that he is living in such a way that he is worthy to take me to the temple! I read in The Miracle of Forgiveness a great quote by Spencer W. Kimball, " The crown of character is self control." I have a desire to have more self control, when it comes to finances, shopping for frivolous things, eating out frequently, and saying no to stupid things!

February 2, 2010

Happy Ground Hog Day ya'll! So, I guess the groundhog saw his shadow so we have six more weeks of winter here in Utah! Imagine that! I'm getting depressed just thinking about that! But I do love sipping on a dark hot chocolate on days like today! I'm seriously considering moving to Cali though sometime this year, possibly in the next few months! I've been secretly job searching and it's complicated to try and interview when you live in different states! I wish people would just fly me out for the weekend to visit and interview! Oh well! To tell you the truth, I have a guy I am totally smitten over that lives in Cali. And I fear the only way to see if a relationship could blossom between us is to live within 20 miles of each other. He is flying out here (SLC) to visit me for Valentines weekend and I plan to fly to Cali for my spring break to visit him but we can't play this game forever!

Life is good!

I can't believe it's almost February 2010! I'm trying to not count the days till Valentines Day but I'm just so excited to have a guy come visit me! It will be my first date on heart day in 27 years!

Happy New Year 2010

Now that was a fun New Year's Eve in Vegas!