Really? REALLY?

Seriously? Another one of my younger cousins is getting married...couples...babies....families...and I still stand in limbo land! Love too, not really, sometimes it's nice not to have anyone to come home to...not to have to cook dinner for two...not to have to check in or get permission to stay out late with the friends. But deep down inside I know that I really want to fall in love and be loved in return! Husband, lover, family, it all just seems like a fantasy life to me right now. So far away yet my friends and family say it's so close...maybe next summer I will get married that's what I've been saying for five years now. I just haven't met the one...i guess...life is good...really?

What's your flavor?

When I ask myself or others the question...What is your flavor? I'm speaking of the kind of men you like to date. Lately I have been trying all sorts of flavors of men, it's hard to find the perfect flavor. My friend said she likes whatever is on her plate! I'm trying to be more open minded and give every guy a fair chance, a few dates to see if we are compatible. The love connection is hard for me to find it seems especially the older you get. Maybe I am too picky but I refuse to settle for my EC, seriously eternity is a long time. No rushing to the alter for me! I'm turning 28 this summer and I have my ten year highschool reunion pressures! I wish I had a hot husband to show off with three adorable kids but I don't so I will have to show up single and sexy;) Maybe I will meet some nerd that I didn't know in highschool but is now rolling the money! Wouldn't that be nice...

Feast or Famine

Feast or famine that is my life right now! With men, dating, social life, and of course finances! I seem to still live paycheck to paycheck on a preschool teacher salary/ Nanny Tessy/ Tessy Taxi/ I need some extra money flow! Sometimes I think my only hope is to marry rich and successful cuz my parents aren't hooking me up anytime soon.
No, seriously though, I'm all about hard work and living a righteous life! And that is exactly what I'm looking for in a future EC! A guy that is not a slothful servant but anxiously engaged in doing good works and showing me loving kindness as much as possible, daily would be nice.
I've been in a lot of homes and seen first hand successful marriages and how the spouse can be treated on a daily basis. I know that happiness in marriage is most likely to be achieved by living the gospel standards and like they say, "a couple that prays together stays together!" LTLTLTLTLTLTLTLTLTL OMGosh I'm getting set up on a date with a guy named, Lance, he is divorced with a three year old kid but who's to judge. I've reached that certain age where the men I'm dating have a history some good and bad baggage. All that matters is if they have progressed and if they have their priorities straight now! For the first time in my life I am actually praying daily for my husband and that I can be worthy of him and that he is living in such a way that he is worthy to take me to the temple! I read in The Miracle of Forgiveness a great quote by Spencer W. Kimball, " The crown of character is self control." I have a desire to have more self control, when it comes to finances, shopping for frivolous things, eating out frequently, and saying no to stupid things!