Really? REALLY?

Seriously? Another one of my younger cousins is getting married...couples...babies....families...and I still stand in limbo land! Love too, not really, sometimes it's nice not to have anyone to come home to...not to have to cook dinner for two...not to have to check in or get permission to stay out late with the friends. But deep down inside I know that I really want to fall in love and be loved in return! Husband, lover, family, it all just seems like a fantasy life to me right now. So far away yet my friends and family say it's so close...maybe next summer I will get married that's what I've been saying for five years now. I just haven't met the one...i guess...life is good...really?